i'm feeling ----- now. i donnoe wat the dashes means. it's just quite an unbearable feeling. feels like the r/s is sinking. if we're sinking now, i donno how are we even going to survive next time. let alone living at his house.
i'm trying everything to make u feel secure. go home immediately after work. no more trips with collegues to eat or watsoever. i'll swallow all my craves. i'll shuddup in office. no more jokes or laughters. if it makes u secured and happy.

i'm so dead.

wat xiaxue wrote on her blog. "it's blessed to be ugly"
really? maybe i shld try to disfigure myself instead. idea??

shutted down.